Success and Sacrilege...

Have you ever been frightened by success? As in legitimately terrified? I have. Scared shitless, actually. It's a weird feeling. Sacrilegious, almost. See, we're supposed to want success, to chase it to the end of the earth. But what do we do when we finally catch it? How do we deal with all the extras? That's what scares me. I'm a pretty low key guy. The idea of all the extra attention that success brings, unnerves me. I don't deal well with the spot light. Never have. And I'm not sure I ever will. Which is why Trinidad Carnivals scares me. I look at what I'm trying to build, and I can do this. I am good at this. This is what I have always wanted to do. But if this takes off how I want it to, I don't know how to deal with the extra recognition. I'm not saying I will ever be a household name, but I am petrified of attention.

Those are the facts. But I have to do this. And therein lies the rub. Heaven help me.