Success and Sacrilege...

Have you ever been frightened by success? As in legitimately terrified? I have. Scared shitless, actually. It's a weird feeling. Sacrilegious, almost. See, we're supposed to want success, to chase it to the end of the earth. But what do we do when we finally catch it? How do we deal with all the extras? That's what scares me. I'm a pretty low key guy. The idea of all the extra attention that success brings, unnerves me. I don't deal well with the spot light. Never have. And I'm not sure I ever will. Which is why Trinidad Carnivals scares me. I look at what I'm trying to build, and I can do this. I am good at this. This is what I have always wanted to do. But if this takes off how I want it to, I don't know how to deal with the extra recognition. I'm not saying I will ever be a household name, but I am petrified of attention.

Those are the facts. But I have to do this. And therein lies the rub. Heaven help me.

2016...

I'm aiming for 2016 to be a really productive year. I plan to start back writing for Trinidad Carnivals. That, in and of itself, should be a big deal, but I have bigger plans than that. I have realised that I don't like what I do for my 9-5 (or 8-4/730-330, or whatever work hours you keep). Don't get me wrong, I don't hate my job. I like it ok enough, and I have some of the best co-workers around. But it doesn't drive me. It doesn't challenge me, or make me want to challenge myself. If I was content to just draw pay for the rest of my life, then this would absolutely be the job for me. But I want more.

See, a funny thing happened when I took a 3-year hiatus from writing. I missed the hell out of it. I love telling stories. More importantly, I miss telling other people's stories. Behind every success, every failure, every action or inaction, there is a narrative that deserves to be shared. I love finding that narrative and sharing. And, if I am honest with myself, I'm kinda good at it. I'm not the best word smith, but I can infuse life in tales that would otherwise be pretty bland. And that is a pretty cool skill to have. So, with that being said, my plan is to start back writing for Trinidad Carnivals, and to slowly crank up the frequency with which I cover stuff. That is only the beginning of plans, but each step is a moment further along a journey. And if this journey leads where I want it too, it will be a doozy. 

Stay tuned...